Tuesday, 15 January 2013

sky, stars, God's little gifts to us...


I was in the back seat of our car with my 3 month old son, trying everything possible from inside a car to stop his crying. If kids can have claustrophobia, I think my baby has it then. Is it possible indeed? Be it an elevator, a car or a small dark room, he would start howling and the moment we step out of it, there he is, back to his old smiling self…

Anyways, while trying to gain his attention, I showed him the dark sky and the twinkling stars. Of course, I was singing the rhyme “twinkle twinkle little star”… I don’t know whether he could really see the stars or whether it was the rhyme, he finally gave in and slowly fell into a deep slumber.

I continued to watch the sky and the twinkling stars…it’s so beautiful…so serene…so warming…so peaceful…so miraculous…

As a kid I used to love to sit outside in the evenings and count the stars. As a pre-teen, I used to sit outside after dinner and merely gawk at the sky as my grandparents went for their usual after dinner walk. As a teenager I used to look up at the sky with the hope that there would be a single star in the sky, because my friends and I, we believed that if there is a single star, we can wish for anything and our wish would come true. I wish…

More than the beauty what struck me is that I don’t remember the last time I gazed at the stars. I don’t think I have become so busy that I don’t have the time anymore to just look up. Or is it that I do look up but all I see is the darkness? As children we appreciate the little things in life, we value and cherish happiness…As we grow we at times lose that ability which used to set us apart as innocent children. 

As children we feel clouds are shaped like elephants, stars, house, our friend’s face, etc, we feel the stars are placed in such a way that our name is written on the sky, we feel they are talking to us through their placement. As a grown up I feel I have lost that ability to envision and imagine… Is it just me, or is it the age?? 

At that time in the car, though the sky was filled with stars, I decided to make a wish…I wished for the child in me to appreciate each and everything and everyone around me… I wish I could find happiness in every single thing that I do… I wish I could forget and forgive… I wish I could laugh at even the silliest of things… I wish…….