a small phase in my little life....

I truly hope, wish and pray to God, this is just a small phase in my little life….

I was never someone with a sweet tooth…never ever…but I do enjoy my occasional snickers and dairy milk and poppins.. As cooking is my passion, I try out any nice and easy recipe that I come across in the ‘n’ number of blogs that I religiously follow and of course I sample a fair amount of my cooking. Other than that I never really craved for a chocolate or for that matter an ice cream.

But now, I don’t mind even if it’s a granule of bournvita while preparing my son’s milk, one chocos or honey loops (things I normally hate), one teeny slice of mango, (thank God the mango season is finally over)… be it anything, I feel like putting a teeny tiny bit in my mouth. I am not a tea drinker, but I don’t mind a sip of tea from my husband’s cup, I feel like licking the butter knife after making my son's jam sandwich...

Why?? Because am asked not to.. It seems I have gestational diabetes. When I heard this, I panicked of course. You never can believe you can get something like diabetes, your neighbour can, but never you. I had the same feeling, some mistake in my test results, nobody in my family has diabetes and how in this world can I get it??? Loads and loads of questions…

Finally when I met the concerned Doctor, an endocrinologist, she convinced me its not a disease, just a mere change in my system due to the pregnancy and put it across like this: “as soon as your baby is in your arms and the placenta (the villain here) is in the dustbin, you will be back to your normal old self”..her words..and yes I was relieved to hear it.. In a matter of 2 months, I will be fine.  

I walked out of the doctor’s clinic 3 weeks back and am still not able to accept the fact. I thought its going to be an easy 2 months, I just have to avoid anything sweet, oily, etc. But not an easy task as I expected…I miss having anything and everything that’s just a little sweet…

I know hopefully I can get back to eating sweet in moderation once my baby is born, this is when I start thinking about the kids who are diabetic and cant enjoy the usual ice cream at the beach / ice popsicle with friends / a simple cake on your own birthday...

When compared to this, my life is so full... I have enjoyed my life all this while and am sulking when am asked not to have anything sweet for a short period of 2 months. Imagine the plight of an adult who knows he/she is diabetic and is aware that they might not be able to have anything sweet their entire life?? I feel ashamed of myself, when I think about others, but at the same time I dread, “what if this situation continues for me or is back to taunt me in a few years time??” I keep thinking about it these days, but do I really have a choice. I know I will learn to live with it just like so many others around me…